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  2016.09.10  10.49
Same song, different day.

Hi, everyone. New here, so I thought I'd just post the first blog I wrote here. Hope that's okay.


So. Where to begin?
I suppose I should introduce myself.
My name is Jessica, and I suffer from extreme depression/anxiety and agoraphobia. For those of you unfamiliar with agoraphobia, it is a condition that basically boils down to a fear of open/public spaces. I was unable to even leave my home for years. I was truly on the verge of suicide towards the end because I just could not do it anymore. I recently went to a hospital and sought help. I am now about to start out-patient treatments for my condition so things are really starting to look up. I was also a victim of the flood that happened here in Louisiana recently. Lost EVERYTHING. Not helpful in terms of recovery but I am coping as best I can.

I think the hardest part is just trying to socially interact with the world again. It's extremely hard for me to even talk to people. And the worst part? I used to be a writer. Everyone that knew me- friends, family, and random people that read my work- really thought that was what I would end up doing for a living. Since the depression set in I have not written word in almost 7 years. THIS is the first time I have written anything since then, so please excuse this poor first attempt.

People like to look at those like me and say, "Suck it up. Go outside. Be happy."
Well. You might as well tell someone that was just shot to "Suck it up and stop bleeding." Mind over matter will only take you so far unless you get actual help. I am hoping this is a good start for me.. so fingers crossed. I just want my life back.

I want to be the person who could laugh easily and freely. I want to be the person who could sit and write for hours at a time with no thought; just letting the words flow from my mind to my fingers. It use to be so easy.

To anyone suffering from these things, YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

I think that's the best introduction I can do for now. Until next time.

Jessica G.



Mood: curious
 
 


 
  2016.07.31  20.38
His Mark in Atlanta

I saw his graffiti everywhere. He did it when the city slept. There weren't as many cameras back then. He made time his.

One day, I was in a record store. Browsing thru the "local" section. Then I saw a picture of his graffiti on a CD. His own. I still laugh about it. He is a legend.


-------from "Regional"

 
 


 
  2016.02.21  23.08
Flexing

Sexing, hexing your mind.
Perplexingly hardworking
I stay on that grind.
Got my time spent on
Learning to find out new shit
Burning to sign my initials
Emblazoned in the sky
Wish you was here with me
Guess you are, I still cry
"Not mine." All the time.
Par for the course, I've decided.
Of course, that's a lie.
Why?

Because when it weighs on my mind
I'm blind with a rage that cuts like two knives stapled together
And binded in blood
Signed "whatever" and sliced
Like a pie and I've never
Been so right now in my life.

All right?

Well. What else is there?
Pray tell me my decision
Was wrong enough to lead me
Right into you
Side swiped, barely alive
Clutching my last breath before I die.

 
 


 
  2015.10.26  20.53
Что круче рыбий зевок или утиные губы?

Оригинал взят у skaznov в Что круче рыбий зевок или утиные губы?

Что круче?

Рыбий зевок
1(14.3%)
Утиные губы
6(85.7%)



 
 


 
  2015.02.10  16.31


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People, people, it wouldn’t hurt to comment now and then, you know. The stats show a ton of traffic coming in every day; mayyybee let us know what you think in the comments? Just a thought.




 
 


 
  2014.07.16  11.17
Horror story concept, yay or nay?

This is a short little concept that I came up with for a creative writing module in University last semester, although it wasn't the final idea I chose to write about, I'm hoping to get some feedback on here and if people seem to like it I can work on changing it into a short story.
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Mood: pensive
 
 


 
  2014.07.02  12.32
Piedras, palos o botellas



He tratado de aguantar y por las calles manifestar
e tratado de olvidar que al sistema hay que cagar
Me han tratado de reprimir con su sucio verde gris
pero ahora a demostrar que unidos somos mil!!!
Vamos todos a la calle, vamos todos a luchar
piedras palos o botellas todos juntos a cargar
porque la lucha es de todos y nunca vamos a caer
piedras, palos o botellas todos juntos hacia él
Ahora que estamos acá, no vamos a retobar
vamos todos hacia el frente sin mirar nunca hacia atrás
porque la lucha es de todos y nunca vamos a caer
piedras, palos o botellas todos juntos hacia el
vamos todos a la calle...!!!
Música: Absurda Realidad
Tema: Piedras palos o botellas
Link: https://vimeo.com/99746079
Photo: deoxyt2


 
 


 
  2013.04.29  17.46
Garden of Stones.

Quite recently at that place it was possible to observe different industrial and urban stuff ... Here were buildings of the rolling mill, founded on June 21, 1857 . It started out as a "company for the production of bronze and iron foundry products", then became the "nail factory". After the nationalization it starts bear the proud name of "Red nailer." You know, at those days everything that was good or important was "Red"... Today it turned into a garden of stones...


Garden of Stones.
oil on canvas, 80х100 cm.,
2013.






 
 


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